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A Humble Cry For Any Assistance

IWANTABETTERLIFE started this conversation
May 19, 2011
I was living with a guy 3 years ago. Then I thought I was in love for three years with a man and his two children. So I just took care of the kids and the house but after this past christmas he had this idea to make family photos for christmas gifts and I thought that he was going to propose on christmas. And when he didn't I brought it up and he said so mean he would never marry me. So I left chrismas morning I even got raped New years eve because I was homeless. I went back to that guys house and he has 2 girlfriends living with him and some guy. But he offered me my old room temperaraly til I could save up for a better place. Plus I am disabled witha seizure disorder and with the stress being alone is unsafe. I was afraid to be alone then now I beg for it. Now it has been 3.5 months and I can't say for my saftey what has unfolded but that guy has a business that is illeagal and is bad. These girls are mean as hell and the owner just says your a guest o they don't mean anything by it. I can hear them talk shit about me threw the walls it a old mobile home. I want out. I am a recovering Addict and I do okay most of the time well it's just all these people promise to be there to help me do thid or that because I don't have family and frankly I am scared to leave my room. I don't have friends I can trust. That other guy sends his friends to my door for sex but I don't do that anymore but they try anyway. What I do when I have eaten out because I can't be out there to cook and all my only$989 a month is gone I pay a little here but, It's down to the wire Here is the bottom line...There is probable cause for cops to come here and I don't want to go to jail because i can't leave because I don't have the money to move. I feel iminding doom. I have busted my ass this last two-three weeks making a model of myself on modelmayhem and I have excelent referances and a good regular resume but my licence is suspended bucause I had two traffic tickets over two years one I haven't been able to pay. And I have court for the in june. I just need a clean furnised minus space for my dresser with lots of food and no bad people I have no numbers for drug connections so I forsee a complete recovery I just need a/or anyone that can see the faith I still have left it's much but I can work with it. I am still stong and believe that there is a God who will provide me with everything I need not what I want nessaceraly. But, I have to prepare myself because I have considintly be mislead or letdown perhaps I have been asking or approaching the wrong people. I just found this site will pray for a suitable outcome for me before the already evil about continues to break the little of me down further. I am somewhat hopeful. As always, Prepare for the worst, Pray for the Best. To whom ever hear my cry I will not make a mokery of you good will. Please have some faith in me.
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Mimzy
Jun 20, 2011
Get out of that place...just go. If you really want to be away from all that evil that is there. Pack up whatever you can carry and get out.
There are shelters, go to a church and tell them you need sanctuary from these people.
The longer you stay the more danger you are putting yourself in. Go to someone that will help...go to a church, salvation army - a soup kitchen or even the welfare office. If you are disabled and get disability or SSI then go to them and ask for references that can help you. Go to the housing dept and tell them you need help.
Go to a women's crisis center...look it up on line or open a phone book.

Do not be an ostrich and stick your head in the sand! And if there are kids involved - go to welfare and ask for services! You being disabled are able to get protection from someone that's abusive - be it physical or mental. If there are kids - depending on how old they are...they could use some intervention too.

This situation is dangerous - get out now. What were you doing homeless on New Year's eve...you should have gone straight to a women's shelter or salvation army. There are groups that help women that are in need, especially those that are disabled. Plus those kids are in the middle of this? If you've cared for them, how do you feel about leaving them in this mess? At least see if someone can check on them after you are out of there and maybe they can be moved to their mother's place or to a relative's home.

Don't be afraid - be strong and get your rear out of there. There are plenty of bad people that will manipulate you and take the control of your life from you - don't let them do it! It's your life...you decide what to do and you choose how to live it. Never let someone take that away from you...never!

You pack up your things, you wait till the opportunity is available. Everyone's asleep, or busy or off doing something and you have a chance to slip away. Go out a window if you have to...and can - or at least get your stuff out of it. Then find a way to go outside, get your stuff and get out of there as fast as you can. Don't weigh yourself down either. Clothes you can get more of, take only the barest things that you need. Bottle of water, some crackers or such - flashlight, map if available, your personal items, money, ID and such. Shouldn't be much more than can fit in a backpack.
Things can be replaced - your life can't be.

Good luck and be strong....
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